Rory-

I'm envious of people, who like yourself, seem to have a peaceful comprehension of God and our relationship with him. I will say if I possessed that same level of "faith" I wouldn't be disturbed by it. However, whether its "God's Will" or something more secular in nature, I don't, so I won't pretend I do. That's not to say I don't believe in God, I just have lots of questions. Questions that perhaps, God wants me to have.

I also thought immediately when reading about your new musical work, was God responsible in your losing your other two gigs? Was it all part of the plan? A lot of people I know who are strong in their faith say flat out everything is God's Will. Good stuff and bad stuff. Except when it comes to personal failures. (Yes, we're on a real slippery slope right now.)

Perhaps God wanted you to lose those 2 jobs so you would then take this new one? Great...

What if you fail in some other area? Cheat on your Wife, lie to a friend, whatever. Was that God's will also? Why would God want a husband to cheat on his wife? Happens all the time.

This is just one area where I can't seem to sort it out. Either God is responsible for everything, good and bad OR, we have free will and its on us, both good and bad.

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Bill in Dayton