Wow – You said that you want instant success – which you hate, or do not want to work at it that, hard; and then your list of keyboards and the ones you try to create with are mostly synths. Your mind is mixed up, sorry. You want column A and you have been selection form the wrong column.

You also add that you cannot play?????? Everyone can play but sounding good is another question. For years my answer to sounding good was; “Who cares as long as you are enjoying it”.

My friend block out what the world is telling you and start enjoying your life. AND put your judging, as in judging yourself in a box and throw it in the closet. As in most cases, we are our WORST ENEMY.

IMHO, John C.