Main thing is, I don't know what is right. Tell the kids, "It's really bad, you should not see her" or "You need to do this, you need to see her and be there."

This is a bit of an unusual situation. The family has no money. The two daughters, they have not been hanging around the hospital. It's 70 miles away and the family has no money, so it's a big problem. Now, it's down to the wire and it isn't pretty.

We were to go there tomorrow with hope in hand and play some music CD's and bring her some hope or whatever. But if she looks this "bizarre," these kids are going to absolutely freak out. This is their best friend and mom. A very cool lady.

On another tack, this is strange... but it seems like a botched job. It has been horror story after horror story. For two years now. And this surgery thing, it has been beyond belief. How can I know... but I don't know... it could be "poor care." This is a no-insurance family.

If she dies, it's the second person I was dearly fond of who was more or less a walking, talking, full of life (although sick) one day, and next day, dead. Or dying. From surgery. It's a big risk, that's my point. You can have the surgery and die from it.