I sort of understand where you're coming from but for me not being a gear hoarder and home player only seems very boringly lonely not being able to share it with the masses or even with friends and other musicians in whatever way it needs to be. I want to play for others this way criticism from, audiences or people, etc, makes you a better player the other way you sit in a room with a big ego amongst all that gear thinking you are the best player in the world... but I guess that's okay too whatever makes you happy..... everybody does at their own way good luck.