i'm facing death now for the 4th time, great question. for some time , i wanted to be remember for my dedication to my music and the business. how i was so grateful to live this life of music. BUT now that i'm
no longer playing, i've had a chance to learn that life is not just about making the gig,being the best,playin the show biz game,getting the deal etc. i'm seeing life in a different way. life now consists of family get togethers. last year was my 60th birthday and my first birthday party done by my family in my life. i was always on the road playing. watching sunsets in peace with the contentment and the relief and tiredness of someone who has seen many of his fellow musician give up the music for a family life and not understand why they changed. now i see.
i feel like i have been in a war and i'm tired but grateful that i'm able to experience the music life and for now what some some call normal. how do i want to be remembered? i was a terrible husband, father,i put my music above my family and tried to justify it as doing the right thing for survival. i don't think i deserve to be remembered as a husband/father. i know i was a pretty good musician. now as i look at the sunsets i'm grateful that my kids still call me dad and grandpa.i (for the first time) feel at peace. sorry for the long confessional speech. thanks