Gerry although a very sad situation....at least your keeping busy with your arranger kb and making changes which is always good. Setting up for gigs shouldn't be a burden it's just part of the profession we have chosen.
In this game you gotta LOVE it or it becomes a job..
and then it's time to quit. Remember playing music for people is a gift and you should always cherish & embrace it,
especially when you compare it to other worser occupations..
good luck with your music.

Wise words! Thanks dnj!!

Gerry M