I think, this topic is okay for our usual board (not everyone checks the Bar frequently);
I can’t provide you with a professional opinion; to me any scheduled activity is a commitment, which activates some countdown timer in subconscious. I guess when public performance is a regular activity, you get used to it, but if it’s seldom, it’s more (overly) exiting. Personally, I became much less uptight since I stopped drinking tea&coffee; but so far I still didn’t get back into gigging life, while I’m making steps towards it, there’s a lot of thinking about other options.