Actually your not that far from the truth, Brian. It is a inner thing, the problem is I can't seem to get rid of it. You should have seen me when I first joined this board back in 2003, I was a compete mess. Always talking and never doing. Always saying I wanted this particular keyboard, but was always told to be careful. I have always had people give me advice, but never wanted to listen. I have gone through my share of keyboards but never really utilized them. I still have an old ARP Omin, I have owned and ARP AXXE, Kawai K5000s, and Ensoniq Mirage, two Casio Home keyboards, Roland JX-305, a Roland Juno (latter version). and a Yamaha DX7IIFD, and three Korg Poly-61's an AKIA AX-60 and a Juno-106.

I even had a list of keyboards and synths that I have wanted to own.

Minimoog

Korg Karma

Korg Triton Le

Korg Wavestation

Roland XP-80

Yamaha SY-99

JP-8000

MS-2000

Juno-6

Prophet 5 and 600

Alesis ION

Synthesizers.com Modular synth.

Although I was discouraged from pursuing them.

The other thing I noticed is that when I would talk to sales reps, most would steer me towards Yamaha.

First was the SY-22, and SY-77, and not too long ago, a Guitar Center rep. suggested I buy a Motif. Unfortunately, I never had the money. Although, I remember when vintage synths were making a comeback, and my father and I went to a music store in Baltimore MD, and was looking at Vintage synths, from Polysix, and a Juno-6 and a sales rep suggested an AKAI AX-60. Never bought it, but did own one years latter, but sold it.

Even as recently, I have been talking about newer keyboards, such as the new Casio-XWP1 and the new redesigned MS-20. My only concern is that I will buy another one and never use it. I would play with it for a while and the loose interest. Which has happened more then once.

Which is why I still have an OMNI, and a Farfisa organ and a KS61, which are not getting any use. I bought the KS61 because I thought I was going to get into software synths, but that never happened.

So after while I just gave up, and have not done anything since.