I'm done!

No more buying or collecting anything, anymore. I am losing interest and, I have way too much stuff. I am stopping with collecting records. I'm not getting rid of what I have. I'm just not going to buy anymore. Same thing with synthesizers, and music. I am done. I am not going to buy anymore, since I am never going to play, or have any desire to. I don't see the point of buying something if it's just going to sit there. I know I am never going to play a musical instrument. I have no interest, desires talent or ambition. So, that's it! I am going to leave here too because I am done. Its, no longer fun around here anymore. It was fun while it lasted. So I wish everyone well, and good luck!


The freak has left the building!

Peace! Paul

Paul, so sorry you feel that way. Are you gonna do anything else now or you just planning on sitting in front of the TV?

I got rid of cable four years ago! TV wasn't doing it for me either! I don't know what I am going to do?

Paul, please feel free to drop me a line anytime you just want to visit. I'm sort of a "pack rat" and understand.

Lots of folks here feel the same, I'm sure.


Be well,


Russ

Nigel: The problem I have is that my brain and body do not work well together. I can hear a song in my head, but I can not play it on the keyboard. I took piano lessons, but hated to practice, and would do anything to get out of practicing. I thought learning to play the piano would be fun, but it was not. If I had any talent, or desire, that would be something, but I have neither. I tend to get frustrated very easily. I tired learning through Garageband, but it was not motivating me to want to play. My biggest problem is that I want to be instantly good, without practicing, but I know it does not work that way. I can't blame the technology, I can only blame myself.

Russ: Thank You! when I look at all of the crap I have accumulated over the years, it drives me crazy. I have too much stuff, and I don't want any more. I need to bring some order to my chaos. Basically if something new comes in something old has to go. I know it's bad, when I try to keep my house clean, but then it just gets messed up again, and the I get frustrated, and too lazy to want to take care of it.

My typical day, is get up, shower, get ready to go to work, work nine hours a day, have dinner with my parents, come home and plop myself in front of the computer, bouncing between Facebook and Youtube. Occasionally, I will do a video, but not always. My day's off I will either spend with my father, going antiquing to buy stuff to resell or I will do nothing the entire day. Sometimes I will get up with a plan, but then my brain laughs at me and says your not going to do that. I hate my stupid brain.

Honestly I don't know why I behave this way? Maybe I need attention or validation? I don't know.

Anyway, thank you both! You're the best!

Paul

I want out!

I'm surprised you haven't bought an arranger keyboard. You can get one that sounds good very cheaply. You can make some fun music with almost no experience. And then that will encourage you to start picking out simple melodies with your right hand over the musical backing.

On day one you can start making music which can develop over time. Total musical fun with no pressure to practice.

Don't blame you. Wish you the best of luck and a long healthy life. Mostly nice guys here but tough group. Very close to the chest, no open hands or hearts IMO.

I think this is my swan song for the Synth Zone, Cheers.

Thank You Ed! I just miss the old days, when there was more traffic on here, then there is now.

Nigel: Do you think that would help? When I do play, I keep playing the same songs over and over again, and I keep getting into a rut! The funny thing is, I want to play like Dave Brubeck, but I'm more like John Cage.

I want to sound like Jon Lennon but feel more like John Cage!

The other thing I haven't figured out is why I am still here?

Yes I do think it would help. You can't have it both ways. I doubt if you are even like John Cage. An arranger keyboard will provide instant gratification without practice which is what you are avoiding. But that instant gratification just may encourage you to play more which would solve the problem. That is not to say that playing an arranger keyboard doesn't require talent. It does. But you can still create music at any level which is a great thing to get you started.

Thank You Brian and Welcome!

I have seen the prices for arrangers and they out of my price range. I don't want to spend $1,000.00 of dollars.

Actually your not that far from the truth, Brian. It is a inner thing, the problem is I can't seem to get rid of it. You should have seen me when I first joined this board back in 2003, I was a compete mess. Always talking and never doing. Always saying I wanted this particular keyboard, but was always told to be careful. I have always had people give me advice, but never wanted to listen. I have gone through my share of keyboards but never really utilized them. I still have an old ARP Omin, I have owned and ARP AXXE, Kawai K5000s, and Ensoniq Mirage, two Casio Home keyboards, Roland JX-305, a Roland Juno (latter version). and a Yamaha DX7IIFD, and three Korg Poly-61's an AKIA AX-60 and a Juno-106.

I even had a list of keyboards and synths that I have wanted to own.

Minimoog

Korg Karma

Korg Triton Le

Korg Wavestation

Roland XP-80

Yamaha SY-99

JP-8000

MS-2000

Juno-6

Prophet 5 and 600

Alesis ION

Synthesizers.com Modular synth.

Although I was discouraged from pursuing them.

The other thing I noticed is that when I would talk to sales reps, most would steer me towards Yamaha.

First was the SY-22, and SY-77, and not too long ago, a Guitar Center rep. suggested I buy a Motif. Unfortunately, I never had the money. Although, I remember when vintage synths were making a comeback, and my father and I went to a music store in Baltimore MD, and was looking at Vintage synths, from Polysix, and a Juno-6 and a sales rep suggested an AKAI AX-60. Never bought it, but did own one years latter, but sold it.

Even as recently, I have been talking about newer keyboards, such as the new Casio-XWP1 and the new redesigned MS-20. My only concern is that I will buy another one and never use it. I would play with it for a while and the loose interest. Which has happened more then once.

Which is why I still have an OMNI, and a Farfisa organ and a KS61, which are not getting any use. I bought the KS61 because I thought I was going to get into software synths, but that never happened.

So after while I just gave up, and have not done anything since.

There are some things that I still have a hard time letting go of, and accepting! I really try but I just can not let it go! I try not too focus inward, but I just can't help it!

Nigel, Brian, and Russ, I have been contemplating what you three have been offering me. That I should buy an arranger keyboard, but the truth is, I know I am never going to play it. I'll buy one, play with it for awhile, get frustrated, or loose interest push it aside, and let it collect dust. I am tired of spending money on something I know I will never use. I have spent money on too many synths and keyboards, to realize it's not worth it. I have no talent, and I know I am never going to sit down to learn, because I am just no good. I get too frustrated and it's just not worth it. I am giving up completely. No, more keyboards, no more Keyboard magazine, and I won't be coming back here. Sorry, but this is they way it has to be. Nothing is going to change my mind. I'm sorry!

Peace Out,

Paul

As Henry Ford once stated, "whether you think you can or think you can't, you're always right."

Wow Scott. That is very profound. I think I was angry or frustrated when i first wrote this thread.

Now that I think about it, I am regretting starting this thread in the first place. I wish I could delete this whole topic.

Just chill, Paul ... ask your self this question:
In one year, is anyone going to care about this?
When the answer is NO, there is nothing to be concerned about ... and believe me, the answer is NO about 99% of the time ...

Paul, I can delete it for you if that is what you want.

Thanks Guys!

I really wish I knew what is was that I want, but I don't.

But isn't that the fun in life ... not knowing but keeping on looking.

Hmm True.

Like the U2 song. ".. But I Still haven't found what I'm looking for?"

Exactly

I'm not sure we will ... in THIS life ...

I'm sorry I have not been myself lately.

People will try to apply themselves in areas where they have not been given a gift. Many constantly try to be who they are not; that’s the equivalent of never being happy. Find your true gifts – keep changing and searching until you become excited. THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU – you just are doing what the world wants. Same with the money thing.
You were created special with great talents but you have been looking in the wrong place and your brain is telling you it wants out.
People who have lost their mate through sickness are told to change everything. Read a different newspaper – get up at a different time – become different in your habits.

I do not remember you speaking about a woman in your life. Hmmmmm!
I wonder why.

IMHO, John C.

Umm, Because I have not found the right one.

Thank you for you honesty John.

It's really because I want it all!

Paul

John is wise...and one of my favorite people here.

GOOD ADVICE, John. Paul is a fine young fellow, who, as of this moments, is being introspective.

Happens to me all the time.

Russ

Thank You Russ.

You know what? Screw it! I'm not done. What started out as being I'm done, is now turing around. What made the difference? I changed my diet, and now, I am suddenly feeling much better. Way better, then when I started this thread.

Nigel, Russ, John, Diki and anyone else on here, who still believe in me? Thank You very much.

ROCK ON!

Paul

That's awesome Paul. WTG

Thank You Nigel!

Well I bought a used 01/WFD for $325.00 from a flea market. Not bad for practicing with. Although it has no manual. Plus it does not display the patches. However I can change them.