OK,
The black man I mentioned was part of a real visual, it was not just part of a made up story.
I thought about changing it and decided not to. You see what is in my heart is the area of admiring the man with a bit of jealousy on my part because in all my perfection I had not achieved what he had achieved.

Chas, as far as your comment, It is more than welcome, I still love you so there. Hahaha

John C.