Hey Russ... funny, as I re read this post I think I may be sliding towards the middle of the pack. Since I no longer rely on live performance to pay the bills, I think I fuss more on the music. I am in LOVE when I play the bari sax with the big dance band, I use my midi guitar more, play more solo spotlights with no bells and whistles and I actually turn down the jo... sorry, GIGS that I don't think I'll enjoy.
I have always been an acquired taste - due to my semi-sarcastic nature and free speech ... actually explosive speech patterns, but I'm glad you got to know the inner me - the Dad the teacher the friend ... many here also know that guy, and still manage, somehow to respect the performer as well. That's the secret to all things - Balance. We teach it in school, and I try to live it at home - balance it all and it will all work out!