I'm guessing the people you are working for, playing for , promising projects for, all take some vacation time and you've probably had to wait for them to get some approval or complete something. So take one yourself- you might like it and realize you need more. And that's OK. No sense chasing after all of the work in the world if you can't get it done. There are others, and getting the work over them might feel good and pay well, but you're missing out on other things..
I just lost someone very close very quickly two weeks ago..I am wishing we spent more time together than pursuing my own interests. You can't get that time back..