cassp, I have pin pointed my problem. I have nothing to do during the day to keep me occupied, until I go to work in the evening. I work nights at a Holiday Inn so I have lots of free time during the day. I do not have cable TV becuse TV is serious addictive drug that I have managed to stay off of for a year now. I don't surf the net too much since I have dial up. And since I sold off all of my keyboards (well execpt for my arp omni, but I don't really play it). The idea of owning a modualr synth does apeal to me even though the thing is rather expensive.

To tell the truth I really do not know what I am good at. I can play a little piano and my mother thinks I should keep up with it. But there are two things preventing me from wanting to continue. One being I absolutely HATE the piano. And two anything praciteing and reading sheet music I hate as well. In my mind I want to be able to play well, but then again I am not MOZART.

I do remember this one time being in my favorite music store and messing around with a Roland MC-303 groove box and having fun comeing up with really good beats and groves, (well I thought they were good) and apprently so did someone else. Some guy thought I was good and siad " I could use you." Problem is I live in Frederick MD and he live in Baltimore. But I did not take him too seriously.

Okay so I know I like synthesizers, even though I can not play to well. I do know some chords and have made things up before. I also know I like ryhtms and drums and such. But then I also like the straight analog synth sounds. Maybe what it is that I really want is something that is completely different and off the wall. Like the pioners of electronic music and modern painters.


Prorbaly what I need to do is sit down and think out what it is that I really wnat and waht equipment I want to own and then go from there.

I bet if I actually had something to keep me occupied in music and synths I would be a better person and stop worrying about stupid stuff, that I should not worry about.

You know what! I think I just answered my own question.