Just chill, Paul ... ask your self this question:
In one year, is anyone going to care about this?
When the answer is NO, there is nothing to be concerned about ... and believe me, the answer is NO about 99% of the time ...

Paul, I can delete it for you if that is what you want.

Thanks Guys!

I really wish I knew what is was that I want, but I don't.

But isn't that the fun in life ... not knowing but keeping on looking.

Hmm True.

Like the U2 song. ".. But I Still haven't found what I'm looking for?"

Exactly

I'm not sure we will ... in THIS life ...

I'm sorry I have not been myself lately.

People will try to apply themselves in areas where they have not been given a gift. Many constantly try to be who they are not; that’s the equivalent of never being happy. Find your true gifts – keep changing and searching until you become excited. THERE IS NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU – you just are doing what the world wants. Same with the money thing.
You were created special with great talents but you have been looking in the wrong place and your brain is telling you it wants out.
People who have lost their mate through sickness are told to change everything. Read a different newspaper – get up at a different time – become different in your habits.

I do not remember you speaking about a woman in your life. Hmmmmm!
I wonder why.

IMHO, John C.